Letting go is how you learn to hold on.

There is something true, simple and yet so hard in that statement. I rephrased this from a poem I heard today and I can't remember the author but I can't take credit for it. I don't know why I want to hold on so tightly to what I can't have but it is the hardest thing. Letting go. Letting go is an action that denies so many feelings but affirms the stronger feeling of doing what is right for me and doing what is right for what I can't let go of. Still seems I am stuck in the middle but as someone I admire said at least if you are stuck in the middle, you know where you are.

It's early

Its thursday morning

its really really early.

I slept ummm maybe 4-5 hours.

I think today will be a good day.

I thought yesterday was not a good day.

I really reallly hope tomorrow is a good day.

Lube Lube from the Tube Tube...

My eldest brother has informed me to maybe use the venue of song to release creative energy and show individuality. So today I wrote the song which is the title of this blog. My extended apologies to those who disapprove of talking about lube (Jess :) ) but its freedom of expression so there it is. If you are wondering about insturmentals for the song or are in actuality wanting to start a band let me know.

We're Back

Its another gorgeous morning... I never know who the hell is trying to call me this early and then I'm like yeah its my alarm clock, its thursday. Going for another country drive and a day at the hospital. This week the goal is consciousness. Apparently it is not good to lose that in the middle of caring for a patient. hmmm smalll lessons we learn. haha